Wow. What a week. Traveling husband. Sick kids. And just that over all stressed out feeling of knowing there is so much to get done, and no time to complete it all. And when you are down, what do you think Satan is going to do? Yep. Kick you harder and push you down further. Cause that's how he rolls. Alot has happened with us lately. And this week was the biggest punch to the gut I have gotten - so far. In some ways it was a great week on the adoption front. But, on Thursday night I had a complete meltdown. One of those meltdowns where you question "Why!! Why God are you doing this? Why did you call us to do this?" Because, as I have said before, our life is *easy* by so many's definition. Why would we change that? But I saw a little thing on Pinterest this week that I should share : "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." Hmmm. Saw that on Tuesday. Posted it to FB. Kept thinking about it. Fast forward 2 days and meltdown and questioning of God. Fast forward 2 more days to Saturday. Spent our entire day in a meeting with our adoption agency learning about all sorts of things, but mainly about how hard adoption is...after the kid comes home. How do deal with all the emotional baggage they may have. How to parent. How to parent your biological children that are coping with the change. And more, oh let's say, stressful topics. So, again. Thinking to myself, "why are we doing this? What was God thinking by asking this of us!?" And then it hit me. I remembered something that my dear and most awesome friend, Shannon sent me in an email recently : "It's your job and Clay's job to thank God for the storm. Thank Him that he's
allowing you to go through this storm. Thank Him that he thought so
highly of you to choose you for this journey." Wow. Did I mention that I freaking love that girl! She is amazing. :) He promised us hard times. In fact my first blog talked about that. So why am I surprised?!! LOL!! God chose us. He is asking us do to his work. We can do nothing but say YES. And, once again, confirmation came today in church. Have I mentioned that I love our church. Our pastor is beyond amazing. Perhaps it's because he too is a Baylor grad? Nah. He just knows exactly what to say when we need to hear it. Ok, God does, but God uses Kirk perfectly. Today he talked about "cat theology" and "dog theology"...and how cats and dogs are like different kinds of Christians. Are you a cat or a dog? Cats are all about ME. They don't get excited about other people. They focus on themselves. Dogs - well, they bounce off the walls when people come around. They are excited to see people and want to please them. They do things for others. God wants us to be like dogs. We have to put others first. And get excited about it! Live with purpose and don't worry about how it will work out. If God is asking you to do something, then go out and do it. And HE will take care of the rest. Whew. The confirmation we needed to keep on plugging on. (And yes, I am horrible at explaining things and Kirk's version was awesome while mine is terrible I know!) But, it is just proof again that we are on the right track. And all the doubts, concerns, stress from people continuing to question us (ugh - can't you people get a clue!!! STOP asking us if we have thought about this. I refuse to have that conversation any more. Did I say that outloud? Sorry. It's my blog and I can say what I want.), are just going to continue to LOSE. GOD wins. HE is in control of this situation. We are letting HIM control our moves, decisions, plans. HE wins. We are taking the backseat and following HIS lead. And, it is just plain awesome to be on this ride.
So, news for you guys. Yes. We have some. Lots of some. Maybe we will tell you one day. LOL! But, for now....we have picked the country. Definitely going with Bulgaria. Easy travel, cheapest, and some pretty darn cute kiddos!! Pretty cool. Also, please pray for next Saturday. Pray for nice weather and no more cancellations b/c we are doing our Photography fundraiser!!!! YAY!! Did I mention that I love you, Shannon!? ;) We are working on a couple other fundraisers too (golf tournament, garage sale, tshirts, dinner/auction) so we will keep you posted as those come around.
